So today (well Wednesday) was one of those down days for me. I woke up feeling the urge to burst out into random tears. The worst part about it, I have no idea why. I use to get this way all the time, but since I was put on some meds, they have been much further between. Went from like once or twice a week to about once or twice a month. I guess the meds are working a bit. I just hate when I am like this. Its not fair to Jenn. She has to put up with me this way. Hell, no one deserves that, especially her. I hope I can get a handle on this mess before it makes it worse. Hoping to feel much better when I wake up.
On a better note, Jenn and I are going away for our 1 year anniversary. Scary eh? We made it to one :D. So come Friday after Jenn is done school, we are venturing off to our secret hideaway for a couple nights of rest and relaxation. We both need the time away from stress of money and exams and surgery's and blah, blah, blah. I cant wait for this weekend. Should be a blast.
Another step has been taken to get my guard license. I now just need to fill out the application, get a guarantor to sign it and send it off. Yippie *rolls eyes*
Well, I was thinkin today about my top female celebrity crushes. Here they are in order.
1) Christina Ricci (was there any doubt for those who know me)
2) Heather Morris (she is one reason Im a GleeK.)
3) Kat Denning (Ive liked her in a few of the movies Ive seen with her in it, but 2 Broke Girls has sealed the deal for me.)
4) Kari Byron (How cant you love this fiery redhead... and Im not talkin about Jamie Hyneman.)
5) Katy Perry (I know, this shouldnt be, but my god does she ever have bedroom eyes with that "Come Hither" look.
Im sure there are more, but there are the Top 5 of Nomtastic Women :)
Anyways, its 2:30am and Im still wide awake, but should attempt to sleep soon. Cheers.
I hear ya! I often have those days too, and am on what I call "my happy pills " to try and help it! Some days if it wasn't for some good friends, Shawn and my god son Jakob, I don't know what I would do! If you ever need to talk, I'm here!! You have at least a couple ways to get a hold of me so...... USE ONE OF THEM DAMN IT!!! lol :-) ((((HUGS))))
ReplyDeleteI'm just getting caught up on blogs and fb. Wish I had read this earlier. One of the feelings that comes with depression is the sense of being a burden to those around us, feeling like our symptoms and medication side effects are not fair to them. Of course it's not easy for those close to us, but please remember that it's never your fault. I'm sure your wife knows that, loves you and is supporting you through this. Sorry if I sound like a know it all, bad habit from spending years suffering and going through so much. I try to share what I've learned with those I care about. *HUGS* You know I'm here if you need to talk.
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